01 – Welcome to my life

— STOP LAUGHING !

Who is talking to me like that, so harshly ? My own mother, even if she doesn’t deserve to be called like that… Cruel mother would be more accurate.

— STOP BREATHING, YOU’RE EXHAUSTING ME !

— AND STOP CRYING, FOR GOD’S SAKE !

Again, she is hysterically yelling at me. I bet you’re wondering what horrible things could I have done to be treated like that by my birth mother… The answer is : nothing. Really, I swear, I’m telling the truth ! Except if you think that to want your mother’s attention is the most awful thing to do to an adult woman.

— OH… HEY… WE « KNOW » THAT YOU’RE SUFFERING… HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES WILL YOU PISS US OFF WITH THAT ?

Ok, thanks, « mom » & step-father, thank you very much to NOT allow me to have any emotions, and worse, to live. Because that’s exactly what you’re implying when you’re telling me to « stop breathing ». How can someone tell that to their own children ? Because of you, I never had the chance to build up self-confidence & self-esteem. You never respected me, you never told my younger half siblings to respect me, and you never taught me how to respect myself. Because of you, I’m a broken person, and I despise you for that.